out of touch

I feel completely out of touch here lately. And by lately I mean yesterday and today. I am just so irritable as soon as I walk in the door. I am so unhappy with my life. I am lazy and I hate being that way. Is self loathing enough motivation for me to get off my ass and do something of course not. I would rather sit in bed and type my problems on my blog and pretend that someone actually reads this shit. I pretend to be happy most of the time. I don't really like it here in Houston because I am alone. I have no one to hang out with on a regular basis. And I am not the type of girl to invite myself along places. I wish I could be content with my life but sadly I am not. All it would take is a little bit of effort on my part but even that seems like too much. I would like to have the place clean for tomorrow but I doubt it will happen. It is just so easy to ignore. And chili gets on my nerves she never wants to play with me or just sit by me and let me pet her. This has been a hard year and the difficulties are no where near over. Sigh...how am I going to change this around. You know what is sad? So very truly sad? I am typing this on my blog because I know no one reads it so I don't have to hear the half hearted "It will get better"s from my crap friends. They don't understand. I am so alone. So very alone.

Laundry day!!!

I hate laundry day! It is the worst. It might have something to do with the fact that I literally own enough clothes that I dont absolutely have to do laundry for a month. I know the amount of clothes is a bit excessive but I am a hairdresser for a living so being fashionable is part of the job. And my wardrobe has been aquired over years. So as you can imagine by the end of the month my husband and I have quite a bit of laundry. But I got to spend the day with my lovely little puppy and she got to play with my brother-in-laws dog all day, so all in all I guess its been a good day. And I'm able to watch my friends season 5 of The Office!! Woot! And there are only 2 loads left to fold!! But on a different note I wish I had a laundry room that looked like the picture at the top of the post.

On an unrelated note I have decided to be a steampunk vampire hunter for halloween!!! I am so freaking excited!!!!!

Sigh

My cat bite is healing which means I can crochet again. I keep having bad dreams that I don't finish my gifts before Christmas even though both blankets are more than half way complete. You would think that the stress and pressure to get them finished would be some motivation but it really isn't. I'm a procrastinator. I put everything off until the last minute. That's probably why I am so stressed out. So, my birthday celebration went well. The dinner was fantastic all of my family was able to come which was nice. Now on Saturday, at the bar, we got there around 6 and I know that it may sound early, but this particular bar gets very busy between 9 and 10 so it is best to go early and take advantage of Happy Hour. OK so we got there early and I started drinking early which under normal circumstances wouldn't have been a problem, but this bar tender pours the strongest drinks known to man. I only had 2.5 drinks and 2 shots. Either I am showing my age (24) or they are super strong drinks. I left the bar around 1030, my friend drove me home which was super sweet because I would have had to take a cab otherwise. And after a nice dose of vomicillin I felt much better. Sunday was OK. My throat hurt from throwing up so many times, and I was tired because I can never sleep well when I've been drinking, and there was the slight headache and nausea, but other than that I wasn't hung over. I have learned over the years to throw up until you can't throw up anymore and you will feel much better the next day. Now the better solution would be to just not drink that much in the first place, but I think one day of being irresponsible is OK.

Birthday

So my birthday is coming up, on wednesday to be exact, and where I work everyone puts money together for your birthday present. I am trying to figure out what I should do with the money. I could buy craft supplies which would be a lot of fun, but I have absolutely no room for more supplies. I could buy some clothes, but the same problem there no room for more. I am really torn between saving it, buying a new digital camera, or getting the tattoo I've wanted for a long time. I guess my decision will be made when I actually see what I get. I can't wait till wednesday, my husby planned everything out. We are going to my favorite sushi restaurant! And that saturday we are going to meet some friends out for a couple of drinks. I can't wait!

On another note, I am supposed to be finishing the deep cleaning of the apartment today. I woke up and a very early 10 o'clock this morning and have had a shower. Thats as far as I have gotten today. I just hate cleaning. As soon as I get started I dont stop till I finish, but it is just getting started that gets in my way. I always find something else to do that seems so much more interesting, like crocheting the blankets for my mil and sil. Or starting on the hat I want to make, or taking my doggy for a walk which really needs to be done as well but is way more enjoyable than cleaning out closets and window sills. Oh well, I really should start something. Ta Ta.

Stupid Cat

I called my doctor today and instead of just calling a prescription of antibiotics in for me she wants to see me tomorrow at 9 o'clock. And she wants me to get a tetanus shot. This freaking sucks! I hate that stupid freaking cat!!!

kitty cat

Well the kitty cat and I did not make fast friends. He bit my finger and actually punctured the skin. My finger is really swollen now. I am going to keep an eye on it. At the first sign of infection I am going to go to the doctor. This just really sucks. I just wanted to love him. Its okay though, if it was meant to be it would have worked out. In a couple of months we will look at getting a kitten. Until then we are a one pet family.

Almost done

My blanket is almost done. I have finished all 60 granny squares and now I just have to assemble them. I spent four hours last night weaving in all the ends. I hate weaving in ends it is so tedious. Now that they are finished I hope I have made enough for it to be the size of an average throw blanket. If it still isn't big enough I suppose I will just put a really wide border on it. On another note I get my kitty cat today. We have already named him Sage. I hope he gets along with Chili really well and that they make fast friends.

Rain, Rain

We have been having a drought here in the ol' H Town so I guess I really shouldn't complain about the rain, but really how many days in a row is necessary?

Sigh

So, here I am again... at the computer, using horrible grammar, posting about my oh so very interesting life. I haven't done much lately but fight with the husby. We have decided to not fight about the ceiling fans anymore. The ceiling fan fight is very long and not very interesting so I will spare you the details. To make up he bought me some very lovely red tulips. I love tulips they are my absolute favorite flower. I made it up to him by dressing in a lovely red outfit to get certain ideas flowing if you catch my drift. We moved into our apartment about 6 months ago and we are still unpacking. There always seem to be those last few boxes that never get unpacked. I think I am going to try to tackle a couple of them tonight. I absolutely love older homes, they just have so much more character. Unfortunately, they have very little storage space. There are only two closets in the entire apartment and of course neither one is very big. This obviously causes storage problems. Well I am off to do something more productive than this.

Dreams

So last night the Hubster and I watched some movies and of course I felt very tired but I couldn't sleep so I decided it would be a good idea to take an over the counter slep aide. And as you are probably expecting I slept way too late. I finally woke up a full 15 minutes before I had to leave for work. That was awesome, but not the point. I had a dream that it was Christmas Eve (my mother-in-law's birthday) and the blanket I am making her was still not finished. I haven't worked on it in almost a full week. I'm going to make my sister-in-law a blanket too and I want to make a basket but I have to finish the granny square blanket first. So, now I'm off to work on the mil's blanket.

Weekend Away

Well I have just returned home from a weekend trip home if that makes any sense at all. A friend from work has family in a small town about an hour and a half from where my family is so I hitched a ride with her. Together we drove teh 16 mile round trip to Oklahoma and back. We both brought back family treasures and the Jeep Commander was much fuller on the trip home than we expected. I cannot tell you how extremely happy I am to be home. My lovely dog Chili was so excited to see me I'm surprised she didn't wet her fur. I got to see my grandmother, my Aunt Sheri, my Great-Great-Aunt Billie, both of my brothers, my nephew, and one of my cousins, in other words, it was a mini family reunion. I love my family to death but honestly more than a few days with them and I am ready to get back to my husband and my dog here in Houston. Ashley (my friend I drove with) and I listened to an audio book on the way home, which made the time go by faster. I just wish it made my butt hurt less. I have never been one to like car rides. I just get so tired of sitting. But I am glad to be home so I can relax before I have to go back to work tomorrow. If only there was one more day to the weekend. Thats the bad thing about being a hair dresser, you miss out on holiday weekends.

Rain

Its raining. I love the rain.

COLLEGE FOOTBALL

One of the many things I love about fall is college football. WOOT WOOT!! It is awesome. A saturday at home watching OU (university of oklahoma) football. LETS GO SOONERS!

Autumn

Oh how I wish it were autumn. Right now it is 72 degrees outside. I long for cool mornings and brisk evenings. I love the way the light changes to a delightful golden color. The gorgeous leaves as they change color and prepare for winter. Sigh. Only 20 more days till it is officially fall, too bad it will be longer than that here in Houston.

Ok this is blog post numero uno. I hope you find inspiration from my blog like I have from so many others. I will be posting updates for crochet projects I'm working on and snippets from my life. I hope you enjoy it. As soon as I find my camera cord I will post some pictures of the granny square blanket I'm working on. I hope to have all of my squares done by September 17th. Maybe posting here will keep my on track. The pattern I'm using is the summer garden granny square(http://attic24.typepad.com/weblog/summer-garden-granny-square.html). I'm excited to see how it turns out.